“I’m sure there’ll be someone who’ll love the way you dictate. Who will love your demands and can keep up with them. She will love everything I hate about you.”
Dear Active Learning,
I grew tired of you. It was good while it lasted but I guess some things aren’t meant to be. Like you for me.
For more than a decade, I had been with the traditional way of
teaching and I was used to have all the attention and focus.
I thought the latter was the one for me until you came into the picture two years ago, instantly blinding me with your gleaming white lies. For sure, from the start, we were all good. I liked how unfamiliar you were. Your ways, principles, and pace, but nevertheless, I liked the challenge.
You taught me how to be independent. And I was grateful that you let me be on my own from time to time because it molded me to the person I am today. We were so great together that people thought we’d last, even my parents deemed so. Little did everyone knew we won’t.
After how many months, you began to change. You showed your schemes. You became too dictatorial and demanding. It was in the first few months that I had noticed, you were never contented of me. You had another class besides me, and I could never understand why you would still go to others when you already had me.
You never knew how hard I tried to cope up with your demands, trying to complete all the activities you threw at me. I had given up so many things for you and I somehow regretted being with you.
You ruined me. It took me a year to realize that we’re too different and another year to have the courage to break it to you.
On April 6th, 2018, I had to leave you. It was time to fix and glue back the pieces you had broken. I became happier after that. I thought we were done for good, but last June, you came back, knocking on my door saying you have changed for the better. I was torn between giving you another chance or cutting ties for good.
I did love you, that’s why I was hesitant. Somehow, you made me realize things, you taught me that I don’t need someone to learn, that all I needed was myself. It was just that I wanted guidance, something you failed to give to me.
I told myself I’d give you the benefit of the doubt. Who knows, maybe you’re telling the truth. However, I couldn’t give you something more than friendship because I am so tired of your demands and I don’t want to crack again.
But I will be here, supporting you.
I’m sure there’ll be someone who’ll love the way you dictate. Who will love your demands and can keep up with them. She will love everything I hate about you. You prove to them that you are different.Show them that even
though your principles are poles apart compared to others, you would not take them for granted.
As for me, I’ll be off finding the right teaching method that suits me.